No Excuses

Ok, so its my last few days before going back to work, and can I just sit back and enjoy them? No, my mind has already been whirling with the what-ifs and I-don't-wannas. It doesn't help that they messed up my pay, and my friend calls me with all the latest work drama including her absence when I return, making me REALLY not want to go back. But since I have yet to win the lotto, to work I shall go on Thursday night.

 I am slowly regaining some ground on the flat, I can actually two-point again which is a huge improvement. It was super dusty and pretty warm out, I am weary of 90 degree days, although I know I will regret whining when I am schlepping Louie through the rain to ride in a few months.

Louie Big Withers sporting his jumping collar

I think all this constant nervous energy came to a big Kat's-a-big-chicken ride today where after sloppy flat work I chickened out of jumping. I swear the X looked a few notches higher, but it was likely all in my head.  I came around and just straight up chickened out. I am a nervous person with poor confidence, but I usually at least push a little past it, but lately I have weaker resolve. I had a million excuses, but really none were good.

I really needed someone to just get in my face and tell me to suck it up, put on my big girl panties and jump! But my trainer was nice, and my hubby only rolled his eyes a little so I sat on Louie and got to watch Karley show us how far she and Henry have grown :) I know Louie is way better at jumping than most horses I have ridden, I just have to trust myself to say on while he pretty much packs me around (give or take some bouncy lead changes).

Hack on Thursday,, hopefully just some laid back riding will keep my stress down for work.